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This is already the third week. But I’ve did nothing.

I know that I have to eat. But instead of cooking, I bought lots of instant noodles with different flavours.
I know that I have to sleep. But instead of sleeping, I spent my time watching anime and drama.
I know that I have to catch up with the lecture. But instead of studying in the library, I skipped most of the lectures.
I know that I have to finish the tutes. But instead of revising, I waste my time reading non-sense story.

I understand that I really got lots of stuff to do. But I really cannot get into the momentum.
I understand that I can’t let time flies like that. But I really not in the mood to get my life back into right track.
I understand the point that I have to enjoy my uni life. But I really hate mixing around.
I understand that I have to appreciate the chance in studying abroad and walk around. But frankly, I rather stay in my room.

And now, I am far far behind. I am almost lost. Still, I don't feel like catching up. The leading light in front of me slowly is disappearing. Yet, I don't feel like following anymore.

Something has changed. But I don't know what changed.
My mind knows what to do. My heart doesn’t know what to follow.

May be there is something wrong with me. But I really don't know what goes wrong.

I am really really confused.
And down.